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		<title>God&#8217;s Selection Criteria</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[Here is my sermon, more or less, from Evensong on Sunday evening, The Fourth Sunday of Advent, at Godmanchester. If you&#8217;ve read my reflection on the Collect from Sunday, you will recognize where some of my thoughts in that post came from. God&#8217;s Selection Criteria Matthew 1:18-end Songs of Praise Some while ago, Songs of [...]]]></description>
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<p><span class="drop-cap">H</span>ere is my sermon, more or less, from Evensong on Sunday evening, The Fourth Sunday of Advent, at <a href="http://www.stmarysgodmanchester.org">Godmanchester</a>. If you&#8217;ve read my reflection on the <a href="http://www.paulsibley.net/2009/12/20/mary-waited-fo…th-of-your-son/">Collect from Sunday</a>, you will recognize where some of my thoughts in that post came from.</p>
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<p><strong>God&#8217;s Selection Criteria</strong><br />
<em>Matthew 1:18-end</em></p>
<p><strong>Songs of Praise</strong><br />
Some while ago, Songs of Praise featured a young woman with a very powerful story to tell. My memory isn&#8217;t good enough to have much of an idea just when it was, but the story itself was one of those that lodges in the mind. </p>
<p>Her father had committed suicide when she was quite young, and she&#8217;d grown up believing he preferred to be dead rather than to be with the family. This had damaged her to such an extent that she&#8217;d got into all sorts of trouble, finally ending up as a drug addict in prison.</p>
<p>All she&#8217;d taken into prison with her was a Bible, as some sort of nostalgic link with happier days. She&#8217;d never read the Bible, and believed she was the sort of awful person, whom God would instantly throw on the scrap heap. But because time was hanging heavily on her hands, she opened the Bible at random, and this is what she read:</p>
<blockquote><p>Come now, let us argue it out,<br />
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;says the Lord:<br />
though your sins are like scarlet,<br />
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;they shall be like snow;<br />
though they are red like crimson,<br />
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;they shall become like wool (<em>Isaiah 1:18</em>).</p></blockquote>
<p>That verse leapt out of the page and hit her between the eyes. She began to read the Bible avidly, devouring what she read, and her life was changed. </p>
<p>She&#8217;s now an evangelist working amongst drop-outs and drug addicts, telling them the good news that they are not rejected by God, that he doesn&#8217;t throw anyone on the scrap heap.</p>
<p><strong>Humans arranging the birth of Jesus</strong><br />
If the birth of Jesus had been left to human beings to arrange, I wonder what we would have come up with? Probably a committee to decide on the best parents, then a selection process and a short list until we arrived at the ideal couple.</p>
<p>I don&#8217;t suppose an unmarried mother and her carpenter fiancé would have stood a chance. In many ways, Mary represents much that has been rejected by human beings throughout the ages. She was young, unmarried, and pregnant, and that not even by her fiancé. </p>
<p>At this early stage in the story, Joseph seems to represent the conventional. He was as shocked as anyone else at Mary&#8217;s pregnancy, and his instant reaction was to ditch her.</p>
<p>And that&#8217;s exactly what would&#8217;ve been expected by good, decent people. Although Joseph was too gentle a person to demand the stoning of Mary, as was his right by law, nonetheless it was his duty to get rid of her. He decided to quietly drop her.</p></div>
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<p><strong>Adding the God ingredient</strong><br />
When you take it at face value, this story surrounding the birth of Jesus is pretty sordid. But that&#8217;s because the God ingredient has been left out. Once the God ingredient is added to the story, everything changes. </p>
<p>The circumstances are seen in a completely different light, and Mary, far from being the villain of the piece, is seen as the heroine. Once the God ingredient is added, there&#8217;s a total change in perceptions.</p>
<p>I wonder how many people at the time were aware of this change in perceptions? Fortunately Joseph, although a righteous man, was also a man who was open to God. He could hear God above the roaring of conventions, and so was able to respond when God suggested he move in an unconventional direction.</p>
<p>After his dream about the angel, Joseph was sure enough in his own mind to continue his relationship with Mary. Nothing in the circumstances had changed, only Joseph&#8217;s perceptions. But on the strength of a dream, he was prepared to accept a wife who on the face of things, may have been unfaithful to him, and to bring up a baby who on the face of things, might have been another man&#8217;s child.</p>
<p><strong>An unconventional choice</strong><br />
This unconventional couple are unlikely to have been chosen by the Church to be the parents of the Saviour of the world. But God often chooses unlikely people to work for him. </p>
<p>Back in the days of the Old Testament, he chose Joseph, the arrogant and insensitive teller of dreams. Then there was Jacob, who cheated his own brother by deceiving his father. Moses, who killed a man in anger and then ran away. Ruth, who hoodwinked an unknown relative into marrying her. And even David the greatest king of all time had a man killed in order to sleep with that man&#8217;s wife.</p>
<p>So the pages of the Bible are littered with people chosen by God, but who are most unlikely ever to have been considered by human beings, and especially not by the Church. And it doesn&#8217;t stop with the Old Testament. </p>
<p>In the New Testament, Jesus chose a most unlikely group of people to be his special friends and to carry the message of Christianity throughout the world. Many of them were virtually uneducated. At least one of them was a fanatic guerrilla. One turned out to be a traitor. They were all cowards. And one particular friend was probably a prostitute.</p>
<p>After the death and resurrection of Jesus, it wasn&#8217;t so much these friends who carried the message of Christianity to the rest of the world. No, God chose a newcomer — a man who had a reputation for being more than a little rigorous in his persecution of Christians!</p>
<p><strong>Unlikely messengers</strong><br />
The people chosen by God, and still being chosen today, to carry on his work seem most unlikely. Clearly the selection criteria used by God are totally different to the selection criteria used by human beings. </p>
<p>Somehow, God is able to see the potential within human beings long before it&#8217;s been realised, and to work with that potential.</p>
<p>Most human beings would find that approach far too risky. Most human beings are looking for proven qualities before they select. Many human beings are rejected, because they don&#8217;t yet have those proven qualities. </p>
<p>Many youngsters are rejected for jobs because the employers are looking for &#8220;experienced applicants&#8221;. The employers don&#8217;t care about potential, because nurturing potential is a difficult and time-consuming task.</p>
<p><strong>God sees the potential</strong><br />
Fortunately for us, God was able to see the potential for good parenting within an unmarried mother and her carpenter fiancé, and was prepared to invest time and energy in nurturing that potential. At that early stage, Mary and Joseph had no proven qualities. But both of them were open to God, and it seems that that&#8217;s all that really mattered.</p>
<p>God never rejects anyone. He uses the most unlikely people for his purposes, and works with them and through them so that their potential is realised and they change out of all recognition. </p>
<p>It can be very scary being used by God, for he sometimes asks difficult things of us. How much easier it would have been for Mary if God had asked her to be the mother of his son after her marriage to Joseph!</p>
<p><strong>All we have to do is trust</strong><br />
But anyone who is prepared to face the scariness, and wants to be used by God, only has to open their heart and mind and soul to him. God knows their potential, and will do the rest. All we human beings have to do, is to trust him and to dare to follow him.</div>
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		<title>Who is Saint Bartholomew?</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 25 Aug 2009 08:00:05 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Here’s the sermon I preached, more or less, when I officiated at Evensong on Sunday, The First Evening Prayer of Saint Bartholomew the Apostle, at Godmanchester. I&#8217;m the person who prepares the Liturgical Rota, on behalf of the Vicar, for the parish &#8212; though it&#8217;s always checked by the Vicar before being sent out &#8212; [...]]]></description>
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<p><span class="drop-cap">H</span>ere’s the sermon I preached, more or less, when I officiated at Evensong on Sunday, The First Evening Prayer of Saint Bartholomew the Apostle, at <a href="http://www.stmarysgodmanchester.org">Godmanchester</a>. I&#8217;m the person who prepares the Liturgical Rota, on behalf of the Vicar, for the parish &#8212; though it&#8217;s always checked by the Vicar before being sent out &#8212; which explains the second paragraph, and my worry when I first started to prepare this sermon.</p>
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<p><strong>Who is Saint Bartholomew?</strong></p>
<p>Lord God, take my words and speak through them, take our minds and think through them, take our hearts and set them on fire with love for you, you who are Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.</p>
<p><strong>Patron Saint</strong><br />
How can the same person be the patron saint of Armenia, of bookbinders, butchers, cobblers, leather workers, shoemakers and tanners, and of nervous and neurological diseases?</p>
<p>When I realized I&#8217;d put myself on the rota, and would need to prepare a sermon, for this evening&#8217;s Evensong — the First Evening Prayer of Saint Bartholomew — I thought I&#8217;d made something of a mistake. &#8220;We know nothing about Bartholomew, how can I preach a sermon about him&#8221;, was one early thought. But, there&#8217;s a saying amongst internet users, &#8220;Google is your friend&#8221;. And it was. Or, at least, in my particular case, <a href="http://stmarysgodmanchester.easysearch.org.uk/">Easysearch</a> — the search engine that earns the parish money each time it&#8217;s used — <a href="http://stmarysgodmanchester.easysearch.org.uk/">Easysearch</a> was my friend.</p>
<p>So how can the same person be the patron saint of Armenia, of bookbinders, butchers, cobblers, leather workers, shoemakers and tanners, and of nervous and neurological diseases? Each of these claim Saint Bartholomew as their patron — chosen because of events that were alleged to have happened in his later life.</p>
<p><strong>Nathanael Bar Tolmai</strong><br />
There is very little known of Bartholomew&#8217;s earlier life. In the Synoptic Gospels — Matthew, Mark, and Luke — Bartholomew is listed among the twelve disciples who were called by Jesus. And there&#8217;s a strong possibility that he and Nathanael — who appears in the list of the twelve in John&#8217;s Gospel — are one and the same person. It&#8217;s thought that Nathanael could be his given name, while Bartholomew — or Bar Tolmai (meaning son of Tolmai) — is much like family name — making his full name, Nathanael Bar Tolmai. But, as with most things about Batholomew&#8217;s life, none of this is certain. </p>
<p><strong>One of the Twelve</strong><br />
However, what we do know is that, as one of the Twelve, Bartholomew would&#8217;ve assisted Jesus in his mission of teaching and healing; he would&#8217;ve witnessed Jesus&#8217;s crucifixion, resurrection and ascension; and he would&#8217;ve received the tongues of the Holy Spirit at Pentecost.</div>
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<p><strong>Apostolic mission</strong><br />
When the disciples separated to continue their apostolic mission throughout the known world, Bartholomew is said to have gone first to India, but finding Thomas already taking the good news of Jesus to that continent he turned west to Armenia. </p>
<p>In those times Armenia was not the small country it is today. It was a large Roman province, which extended from the eastern region of Turkey through the countries now known as Georgia, Armenia, and Azerbaijan into the western side of Iran. There, Bartholomew witnessed, taught and founded churches, which still flourish today. And that&#8217;s why he is the patron saint of Armenia.</p>
<p><strong>Violent end</strong><br />
As in the case of most of the apostles, his life ended violently. The story of Bartholomew is, that his skin was flayed from his body with a butcher&#8217;s knife. And it&#8217;s that gruesome fate which has caused him to become the patron saint of butchers, as well as of a range of professions who deal in hide, skin and leather: bookbinders, cobblers and shoemakers, leather workers and tanners — someone had a sense of humour.</p>
<p><strong>Lipari and Rome</strong><br />
The final part of the story gets even more outlandish. The body of Bartholomew was cast into the sea and carried by the ocean currents until it came to rest at Lipari, a small island off the coast of Sicily. </p>
<p>Bartholomew&#8217;s body rested in the Cathedral at Lipari for more than 900 years until the Holy Roman emperor, Otto the Second, transferred it to Rome and placed it in the Basilica of San Bartolomeo all&#8217;Isola — I probably said that wrongly. </p>
<p>Since this basilica was erected on the site of a medical centre, Bartholomew also began to be honoured as a patron saint of medicine — not of doctors, because that&#8217;s the province of Saint Luke, but of nervous diseases and those who seek to heal them.</p>
<p><strong>A piece of Bartholomew</strong><br />
It seems that everyone wanted to have a piece of Bartholomew — literally. His skin and many of his bones are still at the Cathedral in Lipari; while the rest of his body rests at San Bartolomeo in Rome; except for a part of his skull which is in Frankfurt Cathedral; and one of his arms, which is kept at Canterbury Cathedral, having been presented there by Emma, the wife of King Canute.</p>
<p><strong>Bartholomew&#8217;s influence</strong><br />
Such a worldwide influence has come from one whose aspirations during his lifetime were simple and straightforward: to serve his Master as best he could, to go where he was called and to be faithful.</p>
<p>Bartholomew didn&#8217;t seek to promote himself or to establish for himself a reputation or a legacy. Yet his legacy has been profound, and he&#8217;s invoked all over the world many centuries later.</p>
<p>Bartholomew is a perfect example of the principle set out by Jesus, when he was faced with an unedifying dispute among the Twelve, as to which one of them was to be regarded as the greatest. If you are to be truly great, Jesus advised, aim for the opposite.  The greatest of you must become like the youngest, and the leader like one who serves.</p>
<p><strong>One who serves</strong><br />
So Bartholomew followed his Lord and became like one who served, even to the extent of serving himself up to the knives of those in ancient Armenia who rejected the Gospel.</p>
<p>The legend goes on to say, that when the body of Bartholomew was washed up on the shore of Lipari, the Bishop ordered many men to go out and take it to the Cathedral. So heavy was the body that the men couldn&#8217;t lift it. So the Bishop sent out the children, who easily lifted the body and brought it ashore. </p>
<p>Again the story of Bartholomew exemplifies the teaching of Jesus, that true strength, true goodness, true power, are to be found in exactly the opposite place to that in which the world looks.</p>
<p><strong>A hard lesson</strong><br />
For every generation this is a hard lesson to learn. Even for the Church it&#8217;s a difficult path to follow. The desire to be popular, the quest for a good reputation in the eyes of the world, the temptation of power, is sometimes irresistible. </p>
<p>It takes a lot to keep our eyes fixed upon Christ and to stay true to his values. If we live them out constantly, it will cost us. It cost Bartholomew his skin, yet his name is praised today in all corners of the world; and more than that, he&#8217;s clothed with the body of glory in the fellowship of Christ and his saints.</p>
<p>Amen</p></div>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 16 Jul 2009 08:00:21 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Paul Sibley</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Nunc Dimittis Much of my public ministry is, by necessity because of my health, focussed on the service of Evensong. I have to say, I don&#8217;t mind that in the least. I really like the timeless nature of the service &#8212; we use the 1662 Book of Common Prayer. And I&#8217;m far more comfortable with [...]]]></description>
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<p><span class="drop-cap">M</span>uch of my public ministry is, by necessity because of my health, focussed on the service of Evensong. I have to say, I don&#8217;t mind that in the least. I really like the timeless nature of the service &#8212; we use the 1662 Book of Common Prayer. And I&#8217;m far more comfortable with the formal liturgy of that service than I would be with some of the other services we hold at <a href="http://www.stmarysgodmanchester.org">Godmanchester</a>. One other thing about Evensong is that I can, as a Licensed Lay Minister, do the full service; I don&#8217;t have to rely on a Priest to do certain bits, so it&#8217;s quite a fulfilling service to be involved in.</p>
<p>Part of the timelessness of the service is because of the various Canticles that are sung every week. I particularly like the Gospel Canticle &#8212; the Nunc Dimittis, from <a href="http://bible.oremus.org/?ql=114524076">Luke 2:29-32</a>. Here is a video of the choir from <a href="http://www.kings.cam.ac.uk/chapel/">Kings College, Cambridge</a> &#8212; just about twenty miles away from where I live &#8212; singing the Nunc Dimittis in the magnificent chapel there.</p>
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<p style="text-align: center;">† † †</p>
<p style="text-align: center;">Lord, now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace : according to thy word.<br />
For mine eyes have seen : thy salvation;<br />
Which thou hast prepared : before the face of all people;<br />
To be a light to lighten the Gentiles : and to be the glory of thy people Israel.<br />
Glory be to the Father, and to the Son : and to the Holy Ghost;<br />
As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be : world without end. Amen.</p>
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		<title>Give us insight to discern your will for us</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 15 Mar 2009 09:00:09 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Give us insight to discern your will for us I have been struggling recently to discern God&#8217;s will for my life. For many years, I&#8217;ve strongly believed that where God calls, he also enables. It&#8217;s something that has helped me enormously through some bad patches in my ministry. And for years it has been true. [...]]]></description>
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<p><span id="title-link"><a href="http://www.paulsibley.net/" alt="link back to blog">Give us insight to discern your will for us</a></span></p>
<p><span class="drop-cap">I</span> have been struggling recently to discern God&#8217;s will for my life. For many years, I&#8217;ve strongly believed that where God calls, he also enables. It&#8217;s something that has helped me enormously through some bad patches in my ministry. And for years it has been true. Surprisingly, for this incredibly shy person, I have been able to exercise an up-front Church based ministry, something I never thought would be possible.</p>
<p>Preaching has always been a large part of what I felt God was calling me to. Who would have thought that this man who finds it hard to talk to someone one-to-one could possibly preach God&#8217;s word to a church full of people. The service I&#8217;ve found most fulfilling for my ministry, though, has been Evensong. It&#8217;s a much smaller service in terms of congregational numbers: but that adds an intimacy that isn&#8217;t present in the larger services, especially as we&#8217;re all gathered together in the chancel rather than spread out in the much larger main body of the church. At an Evensong service, I not only get to preach, but also to sing; something that has seemed even more unlikely than preaching. And yet both have been possible because of God&#8217;s enabling &#8212; what he called me to do, he also enabled.</p>
<p>I still believe that where God calls he also enables; but I have learnt recently not to set too much store by that. Many of you will know that I&#8217;ve been in another bad patch with my health recently. This has been especially frustrating because I&#8217;d only just started to get some confidence back in my ministry after the last prolonged bad patch. I started to wonder if the obverse of God&#8217;s enabling might also be true; ie. where God does not enable, he is not calling: and in my particular case, wondering whether my church-based ministry should be brought to a close.</p>
<p>I&#8217;ve spoken all this over with our vicar, and he is keen that I shouldn&#8217;t feel my ministry is over, and that we would find ways around the problems my health present. The first thing we are looking at is a system of back-ups. I will be on the rota as normal for Evensong, but will always have a back-up in place ready to step in and take the service even at the last moment. I always write my sermons out in full, and have normally written them with at least a few days to spare &#8212; done that to avoid the pressure last minute sermon writing can cause, and the effects that can have on my angina. So I will email my sermon to my back-up a few days before I&#8217;m due to preach, then it will only need a phone call to make the change if needed. That&#8217;s all much easier to manage for an evening service than it would be for a morning service, and I feel rather strongly that such a system would be wrong to use on a regular basis at the Church&#8217;s main Sunday service, so I&#8217;m going to concentrate my church-based ministry on Evensong only for the time being &#8212; something I don&#8217;t mind at all.</p>
<p>It isn&#8217;t an ideal system, but it is a way that I will be able to continue in my church-based ministry, and feel less guilty about the times I&#8217;m just not able to do what I&#8217;m on the rota for. This evening will be the first test of how it will work out; I don&#8217;t think I&#8217;m going to be up to the service. So, not ideal, but quite possibly a workable system that maintains a church-based ministry. And in the mean time, we continue to explore options that may be open to me despite, or even, because of my health.</p>
<p>I continue to pray for God&#8217;s insight to discern his will for me; and would ask you to please pray for me too.</p>
<blockquote><p>Eternal God,<br />
give us insight<br />
to discern your will for us,<br />
to give up what harms us,<br />
and to seek the perfection we are promised<br />
in Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.</p>
<p align="right"><cite>Additional Collect for The Third Sunday of Lent<br /> is <a href="http://www.cofe.anglican.org/" alt="Link to Church of England Website" title="Link to Church of England Website">Copyright © The Archbishops Council</a></cite></p>
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		<description><![CDATA[Serve thee with a quiet mind Today is the Twenty-first Sunday after Trinity, just another Sunday towards the end of Ordinary Time in the Church&#8217;s liturgical calendar. But for those of us lay people who lead a Book of Common Prayer Evensong on a regular basis, the main Collect for the day is very familiar, [...]]]></description>
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<p>Today is the Twenty-first Sunday after Trinity, just another Sunday towards the end of Ordinary Time in the Church&#8217;s liturgical calendar. But for those of us lay people who lead a <a href="http://www.eskimo.com/~lhowell/bcp1662/index.html">Book of Common Prayer</a> Evensong on a regular basis, the main Collect for the day is very familiar, and, certainly in my case, much loved. It&#8217;s the prayer a lay person uses in place of the absolution, because we&#8217;re not able to absolve people of their sins as we&#8217;re not Priests.</p>
<p>The instruction in the Book of Common Prayers reads:</p>
<blockquote><p>If no priest be present the person saying the Service shall read the Collect for the Twenty-First Sunday after Trinity, that person and the people still kneeling.</p></blockquote>
<p>It&#8217;s the only place in the official service where what I&#8217;m able to differs from what an ordained Priest does. At Godmanchester we traditionally end the service with a blessing, and so I pray for a blessing for all of us, rather than blessing the congregation; just a small difference in the wording used, which makes a big difference to what is actually happening.</p>
<p>Evensong is the only service I lead on a regular basis where I&#8217;m able to do things so completely. Perhaps it&#8217;s, therefore, no wonder it&#8217;s the service I find most fulfilling as far as my upfront public ministry is concerned.</p>
<p>The prayer comes originally from the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gelasian_Sacramentary">Gelasian Sacramentary</a>, an ancient Catholic liturgy. Cranmer changed the original &#8220;indulgence&#8221; to &#8220;pardon&#8221; because of the medieval abuse associated with the prior term.</p>
<p>The Collect asks for pardon and peace, with the incomparable result of &#8220;a quiet mind&#8221;. Freedom from the heavy dead hand of the past, and past misdeeds, produces the opposite of anxiety. It produces tranquillity.</p>
<p>As someone who allows anxiety to take a hold of him all too readily, perhaps I should remember this prayer more often than when I&#8217;m leading corporate worship.</p>
<blockquote><p>Grant, we beseech thee, merciful Lord,<br />
to thy faithful people pardon and peace,<br />
that they may be cleansed from their sins<br />
and serve thee with a quiet mind;<br />
through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.</p>
<p align="right"><cite>Collect for The Twenty-first Sunday after Trinity<br /> from the Book of Common Prayer</cite></p>
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<p>Incidentally, had my health been better at the moment, we would have heard this prayer twice this evening at Godmanchester, as I was due to lead Evensong today. The first time when I prayed it after the corporate confession, and then again when I sang it as the first of the three Collects. </p>
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		<description><![CDATA[Speak, for I am with you The following is the text of the sermon I preached when I led Evensong on Sunday, 31 August; at Church — St Mary the Virgin, Godmanchester. Speak, for I am with you Acts 18:1-16 Lord God, take my words and speak through them, take our minds and think through [...]]]></description>
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<p>The following is the text of the sermon I preached when I led Evensong on Sunday, 31 August; at Church — St Mary the Virgin, Godmanchester.</p>
<div class="my-indent"><strong>Speak, for I am with you</strong><br />
<em>Acts 18:1-16</em></p>
<p>Lord God, take my words and speak through them, take our minds and think through them, take our hearts and set them on fire with love for you, you who are Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.</p>
<p><strong>Athens</strong><br />
Paul and Silas have set out on a second missionary journey, picking up Timothy along the way. But after being pursued from city to city by some troublemakers, who wanted to harm Paul, he&#8217;d gone ahead of the others into Athens, while they stayed a while with the believers in Berea. Paul spoke to a group of philosophers in Athens, but didn&#8217;t get a particularly enthusiastic reception. So he moves on to the next town: Corinth.</p>
<p><strong>Corinth</strong><br />
Athens is the more familiar city to most modern ears, but in Paul&#8217;s day, Corinth had surpassed it in importance. The Roman military had attacked and destroyed major portions of the city in 146 BC, after its citizens had taken part in an anti-Roman uprising, and it had remained in ruins for a century. But in 46 BC, Julias Caesar passed through, and saw its potential as a Roman colony, so the city was rebuilt.</p>
<p>By the time Paul passed through Corinth, it was probably the wealthiest city in Greece — a major multicultural urban centre, with a population of some 750,000 people. It was a bustling seaport on the narrow strip of land that joins the southern part of Greece to the northern part. </p>
<p>In addition to the financial wealth of Corinth, it had a wealth of religious options as well — most of them pagan. A noted temple to Aphrodite, the Greek goddess of love, was there. Prostitution was so rampant in the city, that the Greek word meaning, &#8220;Corinthian girl&#8221;, came to be a slang term for a promiscuous woman. Corinth was also a centre of homosexuality, with a temple to Apollo, the epitome of male beauty.</p>
<p>The city had no time for a little Jewish tent-maker called Paul, who wanted to tell them about another Jew, called Jesus. Things didn&#8217;t look very promising for him, but he persevered.</p>
<p><strong>Friends and enemies</strong><br />
Paul made many friends in Corinth, and many enemies. He stayed with a Jewish husband-and-wife team, Aquila and Prescilla, with whom he shared the trade of tent-makers. They were in Corinth because that&#8217;s where they&#8217;d gone when, along with the rest of the Roman Jews, Claudius ordered them out of Rome. </p>
<p>It was a custom in New Testament times to teach every Jewish boy a trade. Jesus had been trained as a carpenter. Paul learned the craft of tent making, which involved working with leather, hair and wool. It may be that it was Paul&#8217;s shared trade with Aquila and Prescilla that brought them together at first — not necessarily a shared belief in Jesus. That may have come as Paul sat cross-legged in their shop and gossiped the gospel to the customers as he plied his needle.</p></div>
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<div class="my-indent"><strong>Evangelising the Corinthians</strong><br />
Paul begins his evangelisation of the Corinthians, by getting involved with the local Jewish community, and its weekly worship. He engages in dialogue with Jews, and with Gentile sympathisers. When Silas and Timothy arrive from Macedonia, they find Paul already fully engrossed in the business of the word, busy testifying to the Jews that the Christ, the life-changing and world-changing Messiah of Jewish expectation, is Jesus.</p>
<p>But he failed to persuade the whole community; Jewish resistance became so strong that Paul gave up on them. Shaking out his garments was akin to shaking the dust off one&#8217;s feet, as Jesus had previously instructed his disciples to do when they encountered resistance <em>(Luke 9:5)</em>.</p>
<p>Depressed by the attacks of his enemies, and the resistance of materialistic Corinth, to any talk of spiritual things, he went to bed miserable. Then in the night he had a dream. He saw Jesus, who told him to cheer up: &#8220;Don&#8217;t be afraid, but speak out and don&#8217;t stay silent; for I, Jesus, am with you, and . . . there are many in this city who are my people&#8221;.</p>
<p><strong>Sharing good news</strong><br />
Well, Jesus was right. There were many in Corinth who belonged to Jesus, though they didn&#8217;t know it yet. The church grew there until there were several different congregations, in different parts of the city. Eventually it was one of the biggest churches in the country, and the good news about Jesus fanned out from there to build growing congregations all over southern Greece.</p>
<p>This wouldn&#8217;t have happened if Paul had given up when things were hard. But the story of Jesus was like a fire blazing up in his heart. He just had to share it. You can&#8217;t keep good news bottled up inside you.</p>
<p><strong>The siege of Samaria</strong><br />
We&#8217;ve just heard a perfect illustration of this in the Old Testament story of the siege of Samaria (2 Kings 6.24-25). All the people were trapped inside the city, while the army of the King of Aram was camped round it, waiting for them to starve. </p>
<p>The only people who weren&#8217;t inside the city were four men, and they weren&#8217;t allowed in because they were lepers. They squatted outside the city gate, starving like everyone else. Eventually they said to one another, &#8220;If we sit here, we die. If we go to the Aramean army camp, they might feed us, in which case we live a little longer; or they might kill us, in which case we die a little sooner. Might as well take a chance&#8221; <em>(2 Kings 7:4)</em>. </p>
<p>So they hobbled up to the Aramean camp and found it empty — all the soldiers had done a bunk the previous evening, when they heard of an Egyptian army coming to attack them. The people inside Samaria didn&#8217;t know this, but the four lepers found food aplenty in the abandoned camp, and started to gorge themselves. But soon they realized they&#8217;d have to go back to the city and tell the others. You can&#8217;t keep good news bottled up inside you.</p>
<p><strong>Don&#8217;t be afraid</strong><br />
You and I have some good news. It&#8217;s the good news that God loves us, every one of us, and that Jesus died on the cross to show his great love for us. You can&#8217;t keep good news like that to yourself, any more than the four lepers could&#8217;ve kept the good news of free food a secret from those who didn&#8217;t know about it.</p>
<p>There are many ways of sharing good news. God may be calling you to study until you can proclaim it from the pulpit. Or you may be called to gossip the gospel with your family, friends, and workmates. Or you may be one who proclaims God&#8217;s love, by showing love for your family and friends, your neighbours and people who are needy, until they can see the love of God shining out of you.</p>
<p>Whichever way God calls you to, don&#8217;t hold back because you think the task is impossible. Jesus says to you, as he said to the Apostle Paul, &#8220;Don&#8217;t be afraid, but speak out and don&#8217;t stay silent; for I, Jesus, am with you, and no one will harm you, for there are many in this place who are my people&#8221; — though they may not realize it, until you tell them, that Jesus loves them.</p>
<p>Amen.</p></div>
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		<description><![CDATA[Jesus at the Temple The following is the text of the sermon I preached when I led Evensong on Sunday, 13 July; at Church &#8212; St Mary the Virgin, Godmanchester. It was quite disconcerting when I first started to speak; I looked into the relatively small congregation (19), to see three Priests and a Bishop [...]]]></description>
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<p>The following is the text of the sermon I preached when I led Evensong on Sunday, 13 July; at Church &#8212; St Mary the Virgin, Godmanchester.</p>
<p>It was quite disconcerting when I first started to speak; I looked into the relatively small congregation (19), to see three Priests and a Bishop looking back at me. I think I may have gabbled the first paragraph a little, as nerves kicked in. Sometimes (often), as much as I know I shouldn&#8217;t, I doubt my worthiness &#8212; this was one of them.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><strong>Jesus at the Temple</strong><br />
<em>Luke 19:41—20:8</em></p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">Lord God, take my words and speak through them, take our minds and think through them, take our hearts and set them on fire with love for you, you who are Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><strong>Luke&#8217;s Gospel</strong><br />
In the reading we just heard from St Luke’s Gospel, we have his account of the events that took place on Palm Sunday — Jesus&#8217;s final entry into Jerusalem, a few days before his arrest, trial and crucifixion. In Luke, the story&#8217;s a bit shorter than the accounts given to us by Matthew, Mark and John; for example, it doesn&#8217;t mention the spreading of palm branches on the road by Jesus&#8217;s followers.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">But Luke&#8217;s account does something very useful. It highlights the character and qualities of the Son of God, whose attitudes and feelings, we as Christians are encouraged to imitate. So let&#8217;s take a few minutes to see what Luke&#8217;s story of Palm Sunday, tells us about this man Jesus that we must try to follow.</p>
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<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><strong>Compassion</strong><br />
First, as you might expect, we see his compassion. He knew what was going to happen to Jerusalem. His description of enemies building an embankment against it, killing many of the inhabitants, and not leaving one stone on top of another was a close description, even if not entirely accurate, of what was to happen some forty years later, when the Romans put down a Jewish revolt.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">The tragedy was that it could all have been avoided, if only the Jewish authorities had accepted Jesus, and God&#8217;s message of peace and love that he&#8217;d brought them. The leaders preferred to take the way of political manoeuvring, and intrigue rather than the way of peace — and the tears that Jesus shed for the forthcoming fate of Jerusalem, were the tears shed by God, when he sees needless human pain and suffering.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">We, too, should be shedding the same tears as Jesus did, when we think about the plight of the poor and hungry, in Africa today; the innocent civilians still suffering as a result of the ongoing conflict in the Darfur region of Sudan, and too many other places of strife around the world; the atrocities being meted out under Robert Mugabe in Zimbabwe — I could go on, but I&#8217;m sure you don&#8217;t need me to. But our compassion shouldn&#8217;t stop at tears; wherever possible, we must try to follow our Lord, in bringing relief to those who are suffering, wherever and however we can.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><strong>Brave</strong><br />
Not only was Jesus compassionate; Luke tells us that he was brave — you might say he was recklessly brave, in the service of God his Father. Some time before he came to Jerusalem for the last time, the Jewish authorities had put a price on his head, and they were constantly looking for opportunities to arrest him. But Jesus knew that this final journey, was what his Father intended for him, and he insisted on making it, even though he knew what the agonising end would be.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">On top of that, after Jesus very publicly arrived in Jerusalem, one of his first actions was to drive out the merchants, who were trading in the Temple — an act which would have been highly unpopular with the authorities, for reasons we&#8217;ll see in a moment.  And then he continued his defiance, by openly teaching the people at the Temple every day.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">Most of us can count ourselves fortunate, that we&#8217;ll never have to face, such a challenge to our courage as Christians. Yet there will be times when we&#8217;ll instinctively know, that publicly expressing a Christian view, may well be very unpopular with those around us. Taking a stand against racial prejudice, that neighbours are showing towards an Asian family that&#8217;s moved into your street, for instance, can cause a lot of resentment. But if we&#8217;re to follow our Lord&#8217;s example, we somehow have to find the courage to make that stand, that he himself would make — and be ready to take the consequences of making that stand, just as he did.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><strong>Social justice</strong><br />
Then, in addition to his bravery and compassion, Jesus had a passion for social justice. Throwing out the merchants, who were selling things in the Temple, wasn&#8217;t only an act of bravery; it was an instinctive act to help the poorest members of society that the merchants were preying on.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">Temple worship called for the sacrifice of animals or birds. The law insisted that all of them should be without blemish, and the Temple employed inspectors to make sure of it. The only way to be sure that you were presenting an &#8220;officially approved&#8221; offering, was to buy it from an officially approved merchant in the Temple courtyard — at a greatly inflated price, of course. Temple taxes also had to be paid, in a dedicated &#8220;Temple currency&#8221;, which also had to be purchased at a sort of, bureau-de-change in the courtyard — also at very unfavourable rates of exchange.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">Naturally the people who suffered the most from these officially approved rackets were the poorest, who were least able to afford the high, but unavoidable costs of worshipping their God. It was a deliberate act of legalised robbery; indeed, the very worship of the house of God, was being used to exploit the worshippers. And, perhaps something that helped make Jesus really angry, was the fact that the merchants&#8217; and currency traders&#8217; shops in the Temple courtyard, were actually owned by the family of Annas, the High Priest.</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><strong>Social injustice today</strong><br />
Again, you don&#8217;t really need me to give you a catalogue of all the social injustices of our time. But ask yourself — how would Jesus have reacted when he heard about pensioners having to live on or below the poverty line? Or, the ever-increasing occurrences of families breaking apart in our society? Or, ever-younger children being stabbed to death on our streets, as the levels of mindless violence continue, inexorably, to rise?</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">Do such things fire you with indignation — or better still, a real desire to see something done about it? Because for those who really want to emulate our Lord, they should!</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><strong>Christian qualities</strong><br />
Bravery in the face of unpopularity or hatred. Compassion for the underprivileged. A determination to achieve social justice. And perhaps we might, in conclusion, add a fourth quality — a readiness to argue the case for living the Christian life, as Jesus regularly argued it successfully with the scribes and Pharisees of his day. He wasn&#8217;t afraid of losing the argument, and neither need we – after all, there isn&#8217;t much of a case that can be made against a life governed by bravery, compassion and social justice, is there?</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">Amen.</p>
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><strong>You know our struggle to serve you</strong></p>
<p>When I started to write this blog, I made a conscious decision that I wasn&#8217;t going to make it too personal, too much about me and the various problems I might face. Consequently, there isn&#8217;t a great deal on here about my health. I have mentioned in a couple of posts that I have health issues, but have avoided dwelling on them too much.</p>
<p>And then we come across the Additional Collect for the Fourth Sunday of Lent, and the subject becomes pretty well unavoidable. I could have used the Collect for Mothering Sunday &#8212; for in the UK Mothering Sunday is always on the Fourth Sunday of Lent. But that would seem odd to people who read my blog from other parts of the world, there are a few. For some Mother&#8217;s Day is on May 11th this year. I didn&#8217;t feel that I could only use the Mothering Sunday Collect; but would, if using that, also have to use Fourth Sunday of Lent, or miss a week. I didn&#8217;t want to miss a week, and the thoughts that spring from this Collect revolve very much around my health.</p>
<p>The length of this introductory piece is probably a good indication that I&#8217;m really not sure about this &#8212; I write the blog very much as I think, and try not to edit too much. So the burning question now is, is there any more text following the Collect, or will I actually avoid the subject altogether? If there is, it could well be the longest post on the blog so far!</p>
<blockquote><p>Merciful Lord,<br />
you know our struggle to serve you:<br />
when sin spoils our lives<br />
and overshadows our hearts,<br />
come to our aid<br />
and turn us back to you again;<br />
through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.</p>
<p align="right"><cite>Additional Collect for the Fourth Sunday of Lent<br />
is <a href="http://www.cofe.anglican.org/" title="Link to Church of England Website">Copyright © The Archbishops Council</a></cite></p></blockquote>
<p>I&#8217;ve been busy this week preparing the next quarter&#8217;s Liturgical Rota for our Church. There are seventeen people named as having duties on it, all with differing roles from Parish Priest to Chalice Administrant. And there are just about eighty different services in the three months from the main Sunday morning Sung Eucharist to Holy Communion in the residential homes in the town, and lots in between. It&#8217;s a bit like doing a giant Sudoku puzzle; but with all the elements having differing rules. I really do quite enjoy doing them.</p>
<p>But what has all that got to do with the subject I still seem to be trying to avoid writing about, my health? I&#8217;ve been in a very bad spot with an ongoing heart problem I have. It has changed, and seems to be taking forever just to establish what the change might be, let alone actually doing something about it.</p>
<p>It&#8217;s always been a bit unpredictable, and it has always been understood that I may have to drop out of any duties in church at the last minute. But things were working well. I could preach several times a quarter, and lead evensong on a reasonably regular basis.</p>
<p>But towards the end of last year things began to get increasingly difficult. To the point where from the middle of October I haven&#8217;t done anything in church at all. I&#8217;ve hardly even managed to get there to just sit in the congregation. And in fact, I&#8217;m not actually getting out of the house much.</p>
<p>People from Church have been wonderful. I&#8217;ve had regular visits, and been able to receive Communion at home most weeks. No complaints on that score at all.</p>
<p>When I prepared the current quarter&#8217;s rota, I left myself off completely. I thought it would take the pressure off me a little by giving that space. And I also fully expected to be able to add myself to the rota I&#8217;m currently preparing. And I have pencilled myself in for some dates. But after the last couple of days, I think it&#8217;s just a pipe-dream. I don&#8217;t really think it&#8217;s going to happen.</p>
<p>I want, so very much, to be able to lead Evensong on the 27th April. Two months away. I&#8217;ll be celebrating ten years as a Licensed Reader on the 25th April. But I have no confidence at all that it might be possible. I&#8217;m sure there are other ways I can serve God. But Evensong has always been, for me, the pinnacle of my vocational calling &#8212; even more so than preaching at the main Sung Eucharist.</p>
<p>Please pray for me: that I might be enabled to serve God in some way; and that I will accept it, even if it&#8217;s in a different way. Thank you.</p>
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